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Post by quinn fabray on Dec 25, 2009 20:35:52 GMT -5
 -- Forever & Always**---------------------------------------------- [/b] Finnn ! songForever & Always- Taylor Swift musegood words388 notessorry for all the posting threads for you today, i just have nothing to do haha.[/size][/blockquote] [/ul] |
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Post by finn hudson on Dec 26, 2009 10:26:27 GMT -5
Finn had been feeling a bit better lately. After talking with Kurt, who wouldn't feel better. He'd promised to stop the moping and anger tantrums, but Finn couldn't help still feeling a bit empty. He knew he still wasn't taking care of himself like he should. He wasn't eating his mother's meals at home, and he still felt streaks of emotion and anger at times, when he was by himself. He was getting better at staying in his classes at school, and going to Glee, just to not look at either of them. He knew he would unravel into a huge mess if he had dared to for more than glance at Quinn or Puck. Looking Quinn brought about tears and confusion and looking at Puck made him want to rip into him and kill him. So basically, he did his best to avoid both of them. So far, so good.
He had overslept, and had honestly considered staying in bed all day, contemplating how pathetic his own life had become. However, he knew that Kurt would think it inappropriate, after the progress he'd been making. He wouldn't have been surprised if Kurt had shown up at his door with a whistle, telling him it was time to stop being such a baby. He had to get over it, move on with his life. Finn agreed with him, but he didn't know that all of this would be so hard. He still had trouble comprehending what they had done to him.
Walking through the hallway, he was glad that class had began. There was no one around to give him those looks of pure pity and sympathy. He was sick of everyone being sorry for him. He could scream every time someone gave him those eyes and shook their head. Even the teachers were doing it. He kept his head down, knowing that it was going to be a long day. However, the sound of someone sobbing caught his attention and he looked up, just in time to see her, sitting there bawling her eyes out. Her head was done, so she technically couldn't see him, standing several yards away. At the sight of her, his heart pained. The longer he stood there, the worse he began to feel. His heart was being twisted in his chest, bringing on a set of tears. He wasn't sure why he was crying--really seeing her for the first time and finding all that hurt rushing back, or seeing her so upset? It was a mixture of both, and he couldn't help his feet as they began to take him towards her, closer.
He stopped in front of her, his expression one of mixed emotions and feelings. He angrily wiped away the tears that had dared to fall from his eyes. It hurt him, seeing her like this. But she had hurt him, beyond belief. She might as well have taken his heart from his chest and stomped on it. He wanted to scream at her, tell her he hated her. However, he knew it would be a lie. He also knew they needed to talk, he needed to talk to her, even if he left feeling bitter and angry. It was part of his healing process, hearing her speak. "Quinn." He said her name loudly, hoping she would hear him over the roar of her headphones. He stood back a bit from her, his face full of the pain he was experiencing.
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Post by quinn fabray on Dec 27, 2009 20:46:22 GMT -5
-- Forever & Always**---------------------------------------------- [/b] she whispered. She then remembered what a mess she looked and used her sleeve to wipe off the mascara all over her face. She looked back at Finn and hesitated to say anything else. This was going to be bad she could feel it. There was going to be yelling and crying. She took the headphones out of her ears and placed her I-Pod to the start and looked eye to eye to Finn her eye pleading for forgivness. tag Finnn ! songForever & Always- Taylor Swift musegoood wordsi dunno notesthis is gonna be good.[/size][/blockquote] [/ul] |
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Post by finn hudson on Jan 8, 2010 13:27:51 GMT -5
When she looked up to meet his gaze, he could feel his heart breaking, all over again. He had vowed to stand by her, no matter what. Seeing her crying the way she was made him feel even more miserable. He probably would have felt better if she was happy, off with Puck or something like that. Actually, no, take that back. It would make him feel even worse. It just killed him to see her hurting the way he was hurting. Yes, he currently hated her and was very angry with her, but he did love her, which instinctively made him want to never, ever see her cry. He could feel himself not breathing for a second, unsure of how to express his emotions. He felt like crying, seeing her crying. He almost couldn’t help it. He felt the tears sting at his eyes, and he hurriedly wiped his arm across them. He couldn’t cry, not now, not in front of her.
He didn’t want to give her the satisfaction of seeing how badly she had hurt him. He didn’t want her to know that she had basically taken his heart and stomped on it. He didn’t need any more pity, especially from her. He could almost feel himself trembling and shaking, unsure of what to do. She spoke, and he almost laughed humorlessly. Obviously, he was last person she wanted to see. Well, the feeling was mutual, but he had to talk to her. If not, he would continue going on the way he was going, and he couldn’t take it anymore. He needed to know how she could do that to him. Had she never loved him? And he had loved her so fiercely, so passionately. He would have done anything for her, and she rewarded him by sleeping with his best friend, something he hadn’t been given the privilege to do himself.
It made him sick, thinking of Puck and Quinn together. Puck had been his best friend, but Finn would be the first person to tell you that his former best friend was a pig. He was the ultimate player, and of all people, he was the worst. He may have claimed he would be a father to the baby, but Finn knew that he would be ten times the father Puck would ever be. At least at this stage in their young lives. Finn felt his anger overshadow him again, and he took a deep breath, looking into her eyes. She seemed to be pleading with him for forgiveness, and he just wasn’t sure he could give her that, yet. He needed answers, and that’s why he stood before her. It was hard enough to look at her, but he knew he had to speak to her. “We need to talk.”
He paused, looking away momentarily. The tears threatened again. Why had she done this to him? There was so many things he wanted answered, he just didn’t know how to phrase them. How could he express just how deeply she had hurt him? “Why, Quinn?” He paused, his words barely audible, but full of his pain. “I loved you.” With that, he looked back at her, the tears threatening to spill out onto his face.
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