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Post by kurt hummel. on Dec 6, 2009 0:45:10 GMT -5
// Defying Gravity *
Kurt Hummel walked all the way across Mckinley High to see that his Math Class Third Period was canceled. He rolled his eyes and straightened out his Marc Jacob knee length sweater. Yes, his father had banned the sweaters but what he didn't know wouldn't hurt him right? Now what would he do for an hour and twenty minutes. Since third and fourth were blocked he wasnt entirley to sure. He could go home, but he didn't really want to. He felt his phone viberate. He took it out and read the text from a number he was not to sure of. He pressed read. "Faagg." He rolled his eyes and opened up his designer messager bag and tossed it in there when his eyes read the Glee Sectionals paper. Kurt shrugged and decided thats what he was going to do.
He walked to the Glee Room and sat down at the piano. He had never really took piano lessons when he was younger. Once his mother died his father really stopped anything that didn't have to do with a sports ball. Though he taught himself, and he was actually pretty good. Though he never really learned how to play actual songs. He decided to look through the multiple sheet music laying on the piano. His eyes lit up with excitment as he saw Defying Gravity as one.
He put it in front of him and started to play. "Something has changed within me. Something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game." He sang along and hit each note pefectly including the high f. Once he came to the end he smiled. He had learned to play his favorite song on the piano. "I have met my goal of the day." he said to himself, smiled and crossed his legs thinking of what to do next.
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Post by rachel berry. on Dec 7, 2009 19:52:24 GMT -5
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* YEAHYOUCANRESTASSURED ![/color][/font][/center] rachel berry knew she was the best singer in glee club. or, like to tell herself that all the time. and it was partly true, but she was not the only great singer by any means. but of course, this was rachel, of whom had a very high opinion of herself. she walked with her head held high, perfect posture always. this preciseness only fumbled when she was hit in the face with a slushie. or of course, when she was around finn hudson.
it was true. from the first moment rachel set eyes on the football player, she knew she was in love. she was convinced that they were supposed to be together. but she was sorrily mistaken. not to mention embarrassed and heartbroken to figure out that her love already had a girlfriend. quinn fabray. of course, captain of the cheerios. it made sense didn't it? and he loved her. nothing was going to change that. she was convinced that they few kisses they shared meant nothing to him. although they meant everything and more to rachel.
on a day like today, the young girl was usually found practicing in the glee room. and thats exactly where she was headed this very moment. but she stopped short when she reached the doorway, for there was another voice emerging from the room. she knew who it was immediately. kurt's voice was by far one of the best. she waited til he was finished and slowly walked in. "you're...amazing at that song, you know." she said.
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Post by kurt hummel. on Dec 7, 2009 20:26:02 GMT -5
// Defying Gravity *
Kurt looked around the room. It was actually pretty big when it was only him and the grand piano. When the whole glee club was in the room along with all the instrumental players would be in the room seemed a lot smaller, but to his guessing that was why the glee club was so together. They were like a family really. They fought yes. People didn't like each other, but yet they were still friends and loved each other. For example, Rachel Berry was Kurt's. By god, he did not like her. She got on his every last nerves someday. Waltzing around like she is the hottest thing since sliced bread. Though, he still loved her and trusted her. For example trusting her with one of his darkest secrets, his crush on Finn.
He shook his head and brought his hand to his smooth forehead. Stupid hormons. Yes, he was gay but doesn't mean he had the regular hormones that was brought to any teenage boy. Though, his were more intrested in guys then girls. God, he felt so horrible about how he was different. Ugh, he shook his head once more as he sighed. He needed to control his thoughts, they were running a mile a minute before a voice emeraged.
He jumped at the break of silence and turned around to see Rachel. He brought his hand to his heart and chuckled to himself. "Dear god Rachel. You scared the hell out of me." he said smiling. He then straightened out his outfit and smiled at the girl. "But thank you. You are very good as well." he said nodding and smiling at her. "Though, why are you here? Yes, we all know you love glee but, you do have better things to do don't you?" he asked. He realized after he said it how mean that sounded but he shrugged it off and looked at Rachel, and waited for an answer
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Post by rachel berry. on Dec 7, 2009 20:57:48 GMT -5
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* YEAHYOUCANRESTASSURED ![/color][/font][/center] yes, rachel berry did love glee. it was one of the most important things that got her up in the morning. she was dead set on becoming famous, and had the voice for it too. one conversation with the girl, and you'd know she was determined enough to do anything it takes to get what she wanted.
and she was convinced that glee was going to take her to that stardom she wished for. she jumped herself when kurt exclaimed his surprise at her intrusion. the two were on friendly terms, as of a couple days ago. rachel knew she could be harsh and demanding and especially annoying, so a lot of people didnt like her.
"sorry." she said, walking over to lean on the piano across from him. "thanks." she side-smiled. but there was something she'd always been wondering about that day. rachel shrugged. there was other stuff she could be doing at this particular moment, but she loved being here. it made her feel at home. "can i ask you something?" she said, fixing her dark brown eyes up at him. "why did you give up the solo? that day when we competed?"
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Post by kurt hummel. on Dec 7, 2009 21:23:29 GMT -5
// Defying Gravity *
He laughed when he saw Rachel jump. He smirked before speaking. "I apolgize for making you jump Rachel, you just shocked me. Haha." he said laughing. "Didn't expect anyone else to come here." he shrugged and looked around trying to avoid the akwarad silence. He felt like now was a good time to apolgize about what he did to her and Finn. "Hey Rachel... I want to apolgize about what I did to you and make you look like an American Girl doll who just got mobbed by a motercycle gang." he said lifting his eyebrows up at the word motercycle gang. "I just... yeah." he said, feeling akwarad about explaining himself so he chose not too.
"No problem." he said to her about her singing. "No wonder why you get all the solos in Glee." he said putting on a side smile. Honestly, he really felt like she shouldn't be the main soloist. She was amazing and all but not all that great. Tina, Quinn, Mercedes all had amazing voices too put on a solo, he thought they should get more chances. He shrugged it off, he wasnt about to worry about something he really couldn't control.
He laughed as she shrugged. "Yeah, I dunno why I came here either. I guess its just because I feel safer here. Like even when no ones here I feel like the soul of the room understands me?" he laughed akwaradly to himself and blushed at what he just said. He nodded and gave a high pitched, 'Mhm' to Rachel the dreaded question was asked. He looked at her, his crystal blue eyes shining with guilt.
He stood up and started pacing. He started fixing everything possible. Straightening all the sheet music, dusting off the keys, fixing the bass by moving it over just a little. When he was nervous about something he was not able to sit still. He would pace back in forth, also clean too. He did everything he could to distract Rachel from the question. Though after a while he just gave up and walked over to the small carpeted stairs and sat down. He took a deep breath.
"Well Rachel you already know enough secrets about me you're about to learn more." he said. "You see, when I told my father I was gay, I saw the dissapointment in his eyes. Like, how did I mess up raising a child. What mistake did I make? And, ever since my mom died I've had a fear of dissapoitment and that just made everything horrible. I've felt so guilty. Though I was slowly getting over it, and right when I was close to getting over it, my dad got an private call and it was a boy, a football player no doubt, called my dad and when he picked up he said,
'Your sons a f*g.' And hung up, and once again, the disapoitment waved over him and I just felt so... shitty. I guess." he said taking a deep breath. "So I decided to blow it. I mean I stayed up all night thinking of wether I should give it up or not. So halfway through the song, I decided to blow it. Save my dad even more disapoitment." he said shrugging and looking down to his feet. "So yeah..." he spoke softly. "Thats why."
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Post by rachel berry. on Dec 8, 2009 19:29:16 GMT -5
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* YEAHYOUCANRESTASSURED ![/color][/font][/center] rachel side-smiled. "thats alright." she shrugged. her and kurt did fight sometimes. they had very different views on different things. and kurt was probably just as annoying to her sometimes than she was to him. "well, i come here a lot to you know, think and such." she replied to him. and not just that, she liked to practice here too. it also protected her somewhat from the dangers of getting hit with slushies. jocks wouldnt get caught dead around this room.
she glanced down at the floor when he attempted to explain himself. she didnt like to remember that day. she bit her lip and nodded. "it's okay. i get it." she said. just a couple days ago, rachel had realized that kurt was in love with finn. she didnt know how she didnt realize it before. it was a major thing they had in common. and that wasnt all. they both also were never going to be with the boy they loved. finn loved rachel, and they were having a baby together.
she blushed a light shade of pink. "not all the solos." she protested. of course, if it was her choice, she would have all of them. but mr. shue insisted on giving everyone a chance. and she accepted that, to an extent. she did have a bit of a temper when she didnt recieve the parts she wanted though.
"i know exactly what you mean." she said leaning on the piano, staring up around the room with a faint smile on her lips. the glee room was by far her favorite place at McKinley High. Except for maybe the stage. But there was so many amazing memories here, it made her laugh just to think about them.
at first, rachel thought that maybe he'd snap back a comment at her, telling her to mind her own business. but she was a fairly nosy girl. but to her surprise, kurt stood up and sighed, pacing around the room. the dark haired girl waited patiently for his answer, anxious to find the real reason behind his failed note at defying gravity. she knew he'd done it on purpose. kurt was way better than that.
she blinked in surprise as he told her his tale of what happened once kurt came out officially. rachel herself, didnt think there was anything wrong with him at all. you just love who you love, right? the kids at mckinley were cruel, it was as simple as that. she couldnt imagine having to go through something like that. it was so strange to her to see kurt say the word 'shitty'. he had such a little boy face. rachel sat silently for a moment, thinking about his words. "i guess i never realized how hard it was for you to just be yourself." she finally said quietly.
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Post by kurt hummel. on Dec 8, 2009 20:04:22 GMT -5
// Defying Gravity *
He smiled softly at Rachel, not having anything else to really say. Though he nodded as Rachel explained why she came here also. "Yeah, here is a good place to think, you know. It makes you open your mind kinda, with singing." he said shrugging. He really had no other way of putting it. He wasn't really good with putting his thoughts into words.
He blushed as Rachel told him it was okay. He knew it wasnt she just wanted him to shut up, not bring the horrid memories back of sudden realization that they would never have a chance with Finn. "Rachel, we all know Finn and Quin 'love' each other, though both you and I notice poor little Quinn staring at Puck." he said. "So you actually have a chance. I mean your pretty and everything. You have everything Quinn does except a baby bump." he said smiling and softly laughing at his own joke. "You have a better chance then you think Rachel." he said smiling as he put his hand on her shoulder as if it would help her believe.
He laughed and shook his head. "Rachel you sing basically all of them." he said laughing as he looked at her. "But its alrighty, I'd rather you sing them then Britany or Santana." he said smiling at Rachel. The two were more of background singers... if you could say that.
"Yup, it's kinda sad how much an activity can change your looks on like basically everything." he said looking around the room. "Though, you see I would of never thought I would love Glee as much as I do now. Like when we first started I liked it but I could take it or leave it." he said. "Though after Finn and everyone joined it and Mr Shue became the teacher, I started to like it even more and more after each time we met." he said smiling. "So many memories." he muttered laughing along with Rachel as he pictured the memories of Mr. Shue jamming out to Bust A Move while Kurt refuse to dance along.
After Kurt finished telling his story he felt like two cinder blocks had been lifted off his shoulders. He had finally gotten if off his concious and it actually felt good to tell someone about what he was going through and why he did a lot of the things he did. He had told so much to everyone, he was basically a free man now. And he had to say it felt pretty good.
Except for the whole fact he still could waltz around saying he was madly in love with Finn, now that would ruin everything. He sighed as Rachel spoke up. He sighed and shrugged. "Yeah its diffucult. Though, with who you are always comes with challenges. Mine just happens to be dissapoitment, and hard to love. I just make it hard on myself because of my 'fear or dissapoitment' if you could say that. And I will fine someone who loves me. And if I don't, which I pray I do, I guess thats just how life works." he said shrugging. He took a deep breath and shrugged his shoulders.
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Post by rachel berry. on Dec 11, 2009 16:08:22 GMT -5
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* YEAHYOUCANRESTASSURED ![/color][/font][/center] it was true. it was obvious that rachel would always have a better chance with finn than kurt. just for the simple fact that finn wasnt..well..gay. she chewed on her lip a little as he talked. it was a horrible habit of hers that she couldnt wait to get rid of. she often did it when she was either very nervous, or thinking hard about something.
she wished she could comfort kurt right back, but she knew she couldnt. what was she supposed to say? 'oh sure, finn could turn gay for you at the drop of a hat!' i dont think so. "you know i feel terrible about telling him." she said, knowing that kurt would know what she meant. "i didnt want to hurt anyone, but i just thought it was better if he knew." rachel stated.
rachel let out a short laugh. "yeah, this is basically the best part of my day." she said with a small smile, looking at the piano in thought. there was so many times that she wished she could stay in here forever with all of them, just cracking jokes and telling stories. practicing just for fun. it was the best. and with them, rachel actually felt like she had friends.
she rolled her eyes lightly with a short sigh. "of course you're going to find someone. everyone has someone out there that they're supposed to be with forever." she stated proudly. and even if finn wasnt that special person for her, she'd find someone out there that loved the sometimes annoying, rachel berry.
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Post by kurt hummel. on Dec 11, 2009 17:05:44 GMT -5
// Defying Gravity *
Sighing Kurt played with his fingernails, something he had always done since he was little. He did it anytime he didn't have anything to say or felt awkward. "Yeah.." he said softly. Though then he stood up. "Though why did you do it? Seriously, you didn't have to get into everyone buisness Rachel? I mean I like you, but sometimes you are just damn too nosey. You couldn't just leave it alone that Quinn and Finn loved each other and now they are torn apart and I'm pretty sure he hates you." he said crossing his arms.
Kurt always blushed when he lied. He hated that about him. So he started to feel his cheeks heat up after he said that Finn hated Rachel. Now, he didn't know that, but if he was Finn he would dispise Rachel for destroying everything in his path. He was curious now on wether he hated everyone in Glee. Though the more he though about it, the more he knew Finn didn't. He would of never came to sectionals if he didn't. He shrugged and just hoped his blushing wasn't too noticable, and if it was then he wondered if Rachel knew why he was.
"Yeah. I know I will, I mean just look at your two dads." Kurt said smiling. Rachel's fathers were gay and everyone knew that she basically used it for everything, if she wasn't allowed into something, she pulled out the gay card. Always. Though he liked seeing a couple that he could look up to that he can and will find love at some point just like everyone else in the world.
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Post by rachel berry. on Dec 13, 2009 11:48:35 GMT -5
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* YEAHYOUCANRESTASSURED ![/color][/font][/center] rachel never really meant for anyone to get hurt like they did. well, of course she knew that finn would be exceptionally angry. and that just maybe he'd need a shoulder to cry on. and rachel's would be rather clean and tear protectantified...
"i don't know why i didn't it." she said quietly. "i was selfish and i saw a way to provide for my own ambition and i took it. its just the way i've always been." she confessed. "but if theres one thing i do know, its that quinn doesn't love him. not like he loves her. and thats not fair." she didn't regret what she told finn. and if the truth meant that finn had to hate her forever, thats how it had to be.
she smiled at the talk of her dads. "yes. they're great. " she said with a proud talk in her voice. she was proud of her fathers and didn't care what anyone else thought about them.
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Post by kurt hummel. on Dec 17, 2009 17:58:15 GMT -5
// Defying Gravity *
Kurt felt bad after the look on her face. He could tell she was sorry and she didn't want to hurt anyone so thats why she told, but she ended up hurting everyone in the long wrong. He stood up and walked over to Rachel and put his arm around her. I know you didn't mean to cause this much drama Rachel, you know I guess you were just trying to help, it just didn't end up like you thought it would. Things will work out though, everything does. By next week we'll find out that Santana and Britany are dating or something like that. he said trying to lighten up the situation the two Glee kids were in.
Kurt sighed as he listened to Rachel ramble on and on. Well, he felt the same way about Quinn. She didn't love him as much as both Kurt and Rachel both felt. She liked Puck too and it was just obvious. She was staring at him all time. She had that face on that Kurt did anytime he saw Finn. Finn, sadly just like everything else in life was oblvious to everything going on. You're right and its better to find out now then after the baby is born with a moehawk. he said laughing as he pictured a tiny baby with a face of Quinn's but with a set of hair with a moehawk.
{sorry its short i have like zero muse}
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Post by rachel berry. on Dec 17, 2009 22:47:11 GMT -5
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* YEAHYOUCANRESTASSURED ![/color][/font][/center] rachel nodded as he spoke. at least kurt understood. the rest of glee was pretty much furious with her. but they were like a family. and like all families, they fought (sometimes constantly). but again, like most all families, they would work it out and be friends again. she laughed a little at his last comment and grinned. "yeah, those two are a little creepy, arent they?"
rachel laughed again, "kurt, the baby is a girl!" how was it supposed to have a mohawk? "then again..did you see that girl elizabeth? she has one." a very brightly colored on, might i add. though liza was never totally right in the head.
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